Ponderings on a Wednesday

After I watched this, I felt compelled to post it here. It’s worth a watch. Only 3 minutes long.

I think it’d be very interesting to do that. If I got the chance, I probably would.

Follow up: Here is an excellent link that breaks this video down more. And it is an eye-opener so please read it, especially if you were *moved* by the above video. Why beauty?


I am presenting my senior research at my college’s symposium today. Not looking forward to doing it but definitely looking forward to getting it over with! I really didn’t know how big of a motivator graduation would be/could be, but it has really motivated me. Can. Not. Wait.

So for my Theories of Personality class our last paper is due next Thursday and in it we are supposed to take a minimum of three theorists we learned about, pick out the parts we agree with (the parts that match our personal theory of personality). I think I have mine pretty well outlined, but I am grappling with one question:

Are humans innately good or innately bad?

My gut reaction tells me innately good. I don’t know if that’s because I want to be more optimistic about the race I belong to, or what. Because if humans are innately good, then how do I explain the people who blow up bombs in the midst of 20,000+ people, and the people who shoot up schools, and the people who abuse, neglect, and rape kids and others? How do I explain the expanding prison populations? The abuse and cruelty to animals that I see on Animal Planet?

Those stories are what is stopping me from saying humans are innately good. And if it’s the environment that causes people to ‘go bad’, then how do we explain the kids who are abused and neglected and bullied from a very young age and yet still grow up to be healthy, productive members of society instead of serial killers, child rapists, abusers of their own kids, etc.? And you might say I’m focusing too much on the ‘bad people.’ But how is that different from focusing completely on the ‘good people’, the good samaritans, the everyday heroes?

I don’t know how to resolve this conflict. So what do you guys think? I’m open to any argument, no matter what angle you’re coming from. So please share, even if it’s just a sentence or two.



Train in abstract

Not sure if this *would* be considered abstract, but then again I’ve never attempted abstract photography. This was sort of a lucky shot that I thought looked neat in black and white.


It was a long weekend for this chick. A long, hard, tiring weekend that sucked all the energy and patience out of me. And usually Mondays and Tuesdays are my relief days, focusing on homework and busy work, and nothing else. But I have a final on Wednesday and Thursday and that is what I need to work on right now, so it’s not much relief. Right now I’m too mentally and physically exhausted to think about anything, let alone this:

What is Nathanson’s “Rule Utilitarian Defense” of noncombatant immunity?  A complete answer will include the following: (a) the distinction between act and rule utilitarianism; (b) Nathanson’s 5 step argument for absolute prohibitions; (c) how Nathanson applies absolute prohibitions to noncombatant immunity; (d) the implications of this argument for terrorism.

That and four more like it for Wednesday. Once I get rest and nutrients in me, maybe I’ll be able to focus my brain more. But I’ve noticed today I’ve forgotten stupid, little things that I normally remember in my sleep. And now I’m afraid I’m going to sleep through the last History & Systems class of the semester tomorrow, which I cannot do.

Wish me luck. && have a good week, peeps.


Each drop is a heartbeat

Rainy day today.

Usually rainy days bum me out but today I was thankful for the rain, the cleansing I guess you could call it. It’s not going to be nice when it freezes and becomes slick, but regardless, I enjoyed the wet weather.

In my topics class, The Ethics of War, Peace, & Terrorism, I’ve been finding myself becoming very interested in the subject that we’re talking about at the moment, just war theory. And we’re moving into terrorism which I am very eager to learn about and debate. It’s funny because when this class first started I didn’t particularly enjoy it or look forward to it, even found it rather boring. But to see the different viewpoints and all the different factors playing into situations, and trying to comprehend various papers, essays, and articles, I feel like I have become a much better reader even in just the short time this class has been going on. It makes me want to read more viewpoints and such, to compare authors, and see if I can comprehend what they’re saying and then form my own opinion of the matter. On that point I think I’ve developed a much better understanding of philosophical terms and all –>  there are a few “Philosophy of [such and such]”  books that I own that I now want to go back and read to see if I better understand them. Not to mention the history aspect of the readings intrigues me as well.

On the other hand I have another class – another philosophy class, actually – that is doing the exact opposite to me. Philosophy of Science. Within 10 minutes of class starting I feel like I’m in way over my head, not qualified to say anything about the subject matter, and completely inadequate, not only in that class but to life in general. I doubt myself when it comes to what I’m “going to be when I grow up,” I doubt myself in my abilities to get into grad school if I were to take that route, I doubt myself in a lot of things. I think these are all fears that weren’t necessarily brought on by the class, but brought out by it. Fears I already have. Related to that, in some ways I feel like I’m “behind” on life, unprepared in every way possible – and this isn’t the first time I’ve felt this way. I felt the same way when high school graduation rolled around. Anyway, needless to say, I dislike this particular philosophy course. I hope my feelings of inadequacy in it will fade eventually, soon, but I can’t see that happening in the near future.

Go read this.