I know, I know….

….having a nice camera doesn’t make a photographer. At all.

But. I got the camera I’m going to be shooting with at the wedding…. and I want to melt. The Canon 50D. :D PLUS! My little nifty fifty’s superior brother, the 50 f/1.4. Oh yes, hellllllloooooo swooooooon!



My little Rebel seems so small compared to this baby. (: And I don’t know how I’m going to go back to my 1.8 after using the 1.4. *sigh* First world problems. But of course I still love my Rebel, and always will. He introduced me to so many things….

I had a meeting with Shane today and we talked about what he wanted me to do, how it normally goes, and the general order of things. All the necessities. Where it’s at, what to expect, and what he expects from me. I’m going to be his second shooter, closely followed by his wife who is normally his second shooter but is just 2 weeks shy of popping out their first little one. Nervous, yes, but mostly excited for this opportunity and seeing how it all works. And how I feel about it.

I’m sure I’ll be posting about it more later. (:



Two things…

A couple things:

  • I’m starting a new part-time job tomorrow, at a boarding & doggy daycare kennel run by my wonderful mentor and friend! I am so excited for this opportunity to be around dogs and other dog people, as well as get a small paycheck on the side. The only downside is that it is a morning job. However the good things about it are so great to me I really don’t mind. :) (Just don’t ask me if I mind it Tuesday at 5am when I’ll be attempting to get my tired butt out of bed. No small feat, if you know me.)
  • I am *possibly* getting my phone upgraded some time this week and I am definitely going with the iPhone. I am SO EXCITED for it! (: Slowly spreading my love for Apple… hehe

Those are the two biggest things right now, but they are very exciting to me. (: I won’t be offended if you’re not as excited just because you’re a cat/PC person. ;)


The start of a new week tomorrow. A new job. New thoughts. New ideas. New opportunities.

Bring it on.


If you had one shot to seize everything you ever wanted, in one moment, would you capture it or just let it slip?

Today started off with some exciting, nerve wracking, and almost overwhelming opportunities. Since I posted two photos of Mr. Jaiden on Facebook, I have gotten numerous requests for photos. Including one that is over the top – a wedding. Okay, so she said it was going to be a small, simple wedding… still, a wedding. Wow. I didn’t know what to think or do when I read that message. What a crazii and exciting opportunity! That I still don’t know what to think of. :P

I’ve just gotta jump on it, take the plunge. See what happens. Learn from it. Explore and break down my boundaries. This summer – actually beginning with Jaiden’s photos – I am building my portfolio. It is the first step. (:


On other news, I apologize for the rather short posts lately. I feel like I’ve been putting less priority on my blog posts than I did while classes were in session. Not sure why that is.

Ashley did an awesome post that you should probably go read for fun (no pun intended). I finished my Jodi Picoult book while soaking in a hot bath. I’ve noticed that I’ve really enjoyed doing that lately. The next book I picked up was another trusty Sandra Brown novel, Chill Factor. I’ve read her books before, and though she’s not my favorite author, I like the twists she puts at the end of her books. It keeps me hooked and kudos to her for that. (: Who’s your favorite author? Why?

Quick update on Vicki aka Kiki (thanks Nicole! I like it better. (:) – She has a soft case of kennel cough so it’ll be a few days before she gets to settle into what is hopefully a much comfier temporary home for her than the cold kennel at the shelter.


So I’m running short on time right now, since it is 11:43:04pm right now, but I have to mention this last thing.

I often have reservations about choices I’ve made, like for instance, taking in Vicki. As soon as I had called Wade – the coordinator – and settled it with him, I began thinking, What if she doesn’t fit in? What if she doesn’t get along with our dogs, or vice versa? What if I can’t help her? And with my photography: What if I can’t meet their expectations (for instance, at the wedding)? What if I don’t get any good shots? What if my clients are dissatisfied with my work? Notice that these are all ‘what-if’ questions. And I know I can’t live life questioning “what if?” but it is still a difficult habit to overcome. My boyfriend said to me today before work, “You’re the only one who doesn’t have confidence in your work, but everyone else loves it.” Why is that, Heather?

Hmmm… something to chew on. And another mountain to overcome. We are our own worst enemies.


Just a few random thoughts. And a picture of Jayde. Because what’s a post without her? (:

I actually have quite a few ideas for a post, but I’m not feeling the inspiration to write any of them right now. That, or perhaps I need to collect my thoughts a bit more. Probably both.

Hey Sexy baby

A lot of thoughts were running through my head today. It’s funny how emotions can range from joy to rage to frustration to plain blahness and so many other emotions, all in a single day or even less. It was kind of like that for me today, but not in a bad way. I found myself handling everything pretty well. Related to that… lately I feel like I’ve found something in myself, or *am* finding something in myself, that is stronger. More strength personally, that is, emotionally and mentally, and in other smaller ways. Not sure what it is. Right now it seems to be a glimmer in the distance. A door opening maybe? I’ll see where it takes me.

I’ve also found myself with more self-control, more discipline during times where, previously, I would have opened my mouth to retaliate and get my own 2 cents into a situation. This past week or two I’ve found myself biting my tongue, not willing to get into an argument or a debate over something that appears to matter. I could be subconsciously asking myself, “Does this matter?” and finding that the answer is “No, it does not matter” and so saving my breath. Not a bad thing to do, subconsciously or unconsciously, in my opinion. Perhaps the influence of this post.

This is all mind vomit, so if you’ve read it this far (since it’s really not that long), I’m wondering if I’ve made any sense. (: Do let me know in a comment below.

Here’s a good post that I thoroughly enjoyed reading.

Peace, blog world. (: