It’s suddenly hit me

In roughly a month, I am going to be leaving undergraduate college.

Oh.my.gosh.

And when I say leaving, I mean it. Everything I have to get done, the papers due, the grades & credits rolling in to meet the requirements…. I. Am. Leaving. And I am dead set on that.

Since that has happened, the stress has pretty much wiped away. In place of it is determination. Cautious determination, yes, because I *do* still have an entire month to get through as well as a ton of stuff to do before then, but a determination nonetheless. Tonight I wrote over six pages of my senior thesis project that I’ve been seriously lagging behind on. I submitted my second draft to my advisor and am halfway finished with my third draft. (Not sure if he requires 3 or 4 drafts before the final draft, but whatever). I know what time I am presenting at the required conference school thingy (ugh). I have to submit some things to a few professors for my grad school application. I’ve begun apartment searching in Colorado (eek! omg! aaahhh!) and thinking about what it will be like to live on my own (holy crap).

And my mindset. Ah that determined mindset. It’s a strange, scary thing, that’s for sure. But there’s a path in front of me that I know I need to take and I will do it. I can’t let my fears stop me or my past mistakes and regrets slow me down. Take what is in front of you. Take what you want. It will be worth it.

Peace.

Day 15: finger

Yes, a photo of my fingers holding Jayde’s cute face with her “Squirrel!” expression on. Because who really wants to look at a photo of a boring ‘ol finger? (Unless it has a nice wound on it (:)

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So how’s everyone coming on their Day Zero lists? Here’s an update on mine. (:

#84: Make a new cookie, bar, or other dessert from scratch. When I was younger, I begged my mom to make her delicious homemade chocolate chip cookies every other day. And finally, one day, she got tired of making them for me and said, “Come here, let me show you how.” Since then, I’ve been the one who makes the chocolate chip cookies of the house. The problem is I rarely made stuff other than chocolate chip cookies. Sure, I tried a double chocolate chocolate chip cookie recipe, and a few different brownie recipes, and a delectable peanut butter pie recipe, but I’m not one to stray too far from the tried-and-true (makes going to your favorite restaurants and coffee places a breeze, because they already know your order (:). So I put this on the list, making myself dabble in something different. And boy were these different!

For one thing, I really don’t care for walnuts. In fact, I don’t like them, and especially not in cookies, brownies, pies, etc. And this recipe called for walnuts! Boy were my parents pleased. Forget the fact that it’s the baker that creates the magic, both Mom and Dad gave this concoction an 11 on a 1-10 scale of deliciousness, merely because it had walnuts in it. Go figure. (:

Secondly, this recipe asked me to use the oven twice. Once for the base/crust, and again for the main filling. Again, I’m kind of impatient. I want to whip something up and be done with it. I don’t have the patience to mix something just right, or double check to make sure the crust is just the right combination of crispiness & flakiness. I want my cookies, and I want them now! Okay, not really. These bars (triangles, whatever) turned out fantastic. The flavor was fantastic, and I had fun making them.

(Thirdly, this recipe had no chocolate involved. If you know me, that is almost unbelievable.)

#85: Try 10 new recipes. 3 out of 10 completed. I counted the above recipe, because it is a new recipe. (:

 A new brownie recipe and a cream puff recipe. Yes, a cream puff recipe. If I would have known in advance that I would stand at a hot stove on an 85-feels-like-97 degree day for 45 minutes waiting for pudding to boil, I might have second guessed my decision to stop at the particular page. However, since I did not realize what these entailed, I tackled it with a vengeance. If you’ve made cream puffs before, then you understand the work that goes into them. It was worth it. They were absolutely mouthwatering.

I was on a baking frenzy tonight. I had the urge to bake, but I didn’t want to make cookies. So I trolled through my trusty Hershey’s recipe book that I acquired from a school book fair thingy ages ago and found these recipes that sounded fun. If the cream puffs hadn’t worn me out and taken so much time, I probably would have made more. I had fun. (:

What is YOUR favorite recipe?

Peace.