It’s only the first day back and I’m already stressed almost to the max.
I went for a walk with a friend after my night class tonight and before we parted ways I asked her how she managed to have space in her head for all the things she has to do and get done. She’s already planning her senior research project, this summer’s schedule, next semester’s schedule and plans. Not to mention everything that has to be done RIGHT NOW. That is what’s got me overwhelmed and stressed out: taking everything day by day, week by week if I have to. I feel like I have so much to do in this next week, and I keep getting that nagging feeling that I’m not able to do it to the best of my ability, if at all. I doubt myself, despite my attempts to push it away.
I’m a junior in college, but it doesn’t feel that way. Back when I was in high school, any college students I knew seemed to have everything together, have their life on track, their goals and plans straight ahead in front of them. I don’t feel that way, not one bit. It feels like life is rushing ahead of me and I’m having a hard time keeping up.
I don’t want to worry or stress about this stuff, but it’s hard not to.
I don’t have much to say today. Just had to get that off my chest. It helps, for a little bit anyway. Tomorrow is going to be gorgeous so I hope to get some photos to post.